Tuesday, February 5, 2019

The Most Difficult Post I've Ever Written


Do you have a hard time sharing deeply personal things about yourself, or for asking for help when you really and truly need it? ME TOO!

The other day a Facebook friend from high school asked for prayer for her sick baby granddaughter. I told her I would pray and I followed closely on her progress. When that little one got to go home I was so happy and relieved for her family. 

I remember thinking what a privilege it was to share in their lives at such an intimate time, and to be able to pray for them, actually an honor, a privilege to pray for one of Gods children. I didn't need to know details because my God knew the story from beginning to end. All I needed to know is someone I cared about was asking for prayer.

I'm realizing I need to ask for prayer, even if it feels uncomfortable for me. How can God be glorified if I don't allow people, praying people, to pray for me. 

Now, first you must know that I truly believe in prayer, however that does not mean that I believe whatever I pray for I will get because God's plan goes beyond my wants. He is sovereign, omnipotent and I am required to trust and believe in him no matter what the outcome is. He does promise he will get me THROUGH whatever I am experiencing and will be with me.

I'm becoming more and more aware that sometimes  my privacy issues are not a good thing. This is something I struggle with. How do I share certain things or ask for prayer without letting it all out. 

Right now Dougie and I are going through the most horrific experience in our lives and I am asking for your prayers.



In July of this year my beautiful Dougie was diagnosed with Liver cancer. It is terminal and he will die from this. When?, only God knows.

 I will say this, this horrible, heinous disease is taking my Dougie away from me. My heart is broken beyond belief. I have never felt such pain, a pain in a part of my body that I never knew was there. A part of me that is so deep within it cuts to my core.

Our story has many layers and details, none of which are necessary to share at this time, because God knows our needs, and if you are believer in prayer then you know the fact that we are asking for your sacred, heartfelt prayers is all that needs to be said at this time.

This was such a difficult thing for me to post and I have prayed about the timing of when I would share what has been going on over the last 7 months. I truly feel that today was the day I needed to share and to ask you all for prayers for my beautiful blue eyed boy, Dougie.



                      Isaiah 41:13
For I the LORD your God will hold your right hand, saying to you, Fear not; I will help you.


 
 

61 comments:

Roy Peacock said...

Kathy and Doug,

Praying in Preston. Thank you for sharing.

AlliG20 said...

Praying for you and your husband!!! I’m so sorry. You are brave to share and will be lifted in prayer!

Kristin @ My Uncommon Slice of Suburbia said...

My heart is breaking for you, I am so sorry! I will be praying for you and your amazing husband, all my love you to you and your family!

Sarah said...

Kathysue, you know you and your precious Dougie have all my sincere prayers. You will be held close in my heart round the clock. I know you two have a beautiful story and history together, and it breaks my heart to think of you too facing this. Thank you for sharing. Sending hugs of comfort and wrapping you in the love of friendship.

Unknown said...

Oh Kathysue, I am so sorry and will be praying for you all.

Sissie's Shabby Cottage said...

Kathysue,
I am so very, very sorry to hear this and I pray that God will give you strength. There is nothing that can be said when we are facing losing a loved one. I know this from our own families experience with losing our Brother to Liver Cancer. I pray that God will give you peace and eventually give you the will to move on. I hope too that you will be surrounded by those that love you and that they hold you tight and love you with all their hearts.
God Bless You and thank you for sharing.
Sissie

Calypso In The Country said...

My heart breaks for you and I am so sorry to read what you are going through. Sending prayers and positive thoughts.
Hugs,
Shelley

Kim @ Savvy Southern Style said...

Oh, Kathy I am so very sorry to read this. I will definitely pray for you both and for his strength to get you through this difficult time.

Unknown said...

Sending prayers and love your way, Kathy Sue! Cancer is a heinous disease that unfortunately has touched so many of us. I will keep you and Dougie in my thoughts. XOXO

Maureen said...

Praying for you, Dougie and your family.

Melissa Hebbard said...

My prayers are with you, Kathysue, for strength to endure so that you can be the support and comfort that he needs, and for Dougie that he can hopefully have a remission to give you some more time together. Praying for you both here in Australia. May a web of prayers stretch across the Globe, surrounding you both in a network of love and support.

Unknown said...

Juste un petit mot pour vous dire que j'ai lu avec attention et empathie votre post. Je ne vous connais pas, Dougie non plus. En revanche, vous pouvez compter sur mes prières. Je vous souhaite bon courage à tous les deux. Je vous garde tous les deux dans ma prière, je vous le promets !

Regina S. said...

How brave you are to post! I will be praying!

Karen said...

Kathysue,
I will keep your Dougie in my prayers. My husband is recovering from serious illness as well. I understand your reluctance to "over share" but you are right, we all go through difficult times and people of faith want to pray for those in need.
Best to you during this difficult time.
Karen

John said...

Stay strong Kathy, prayers and love to you both.

Merlin said...

Oh, my dear...this will take more courage than you thought possible...prayers sent...God be with you and yours. franki

Michele Castleberry said...

Oh KathySue, I am so sad to hear about your sweet husband's terminal illness. I will keep you both and your families in my prayers. My heart breaks for all of you.

Tanya Copeland said...

Good morning. Your post is a potent reminder that life can change in a minute. As we age the likelihood of that happening increases. I will pray for your soulmate as I try to remember to cherish mine.
Tanya

Elizabeth Day said...

Oh Kathy Sue, I've felt that something was going on in your life but had no idea what. I am so sorry to hear of this terrible thing for you and your sweet husband. I do definitely believe in the power of prayer and know first hand the blessing of having faithful prayer warriors who help carry the burden. Know I will be praying for you and Dougie in the days ahead, trusting that our omnipotent, sovereign God will sustain, strengthen, heal and bring comfort to His children. Thank you for sharing this today. I too am dealing with a heavy heart regarding a family member so will trust our faithful God to bring about His will for both us.

Pinky at Designs by Pinky said...

Kathy Sue, I left a comment last night but don't see it? I hope you go ti. XOXO

Unknown said...

Oh, Kathysye, your post touched me so deeply. I pray for God’s comfort to cover you and your precious husband. Please never give up hope for our God is a loving God, and he does perform miracles.

Southernshades said...

I WILL pray for him and that GOD gives you both the strength you need to get through this. I’m so very sorry! To have a love like you and your husband’s is a rare thing in this complex world. I have neve never been blessed with what you have and I have admired it since we became FB friends. I’m so thankful that you are my sister in Christ and through Him all things are possible. He is always with us and will never leave you and your husband. Pain can be a learning experience and a time to re-evaluate our lives and our relationship with God.

Connie said...

Kathysue - I'm so sorry to hear this news. I most certainly believe in the power of prayer and will be lifting you and your dear husband up to our Heavenly Father. Thank you for letting us share this sorrow with you. Blessings.

sarah said...

Praying hard.

Lady of the Manor said...

Oh, Kathysue, I’m am truly sorry to hear this! Please know I’ll be lifting you two up in prayer everyday. God will be with you every step if the way.

Cissy said...

I am praying for you and Doug that God would surround you with His peace and comfort. thank you for allowing us to pray for you.

Judy B said...

There really are no words...will be praying for you and your wonderful husband.

Dana Frieling said...

Your vulnerability is admirable. Community is powerful when it comes to prayer. If only we were all more open and willing to ask for coverage I truly believe we'd witness more miracles!
Dear God, You are the healer of all things. Please heal the hearts, the bodies and the souls of this family. Please gift them with your presence in such a powerful way that it's undeniable. We trust in your ways and ask for wisdom to be bestowed into this season of life. It's in the powerful name of Jesus that we approach you with these bold requests, dear One. Amen.

Marty@A Stroll Thru Life said...

Kathy, my heart aches for you and your family. You are and will remain in my prayers. God Bless and Give You Peace.

Debra Phillips said...

Dearest Kathy Sue

I am stunned and devastated for you both.

I have watched from a distance and marveled at your marriage, your admiration and love for your husband has been a non-stop love letter. absolutely prayers, for less pain for Doug, for beauty in these horrendous days, for taking care of you and your family.....and for a miracle.

when I was in that fatal car accident with Marija, the popular blogger, you were the first to comment and extend your prayers, I will never forget how you made me feel. hugs to you my dear.
Debra

Hallie Smith said...

Praying.

Bulldogmom said...

thoughts and prayers to you and your family...faith is a wonderful thing to help us through these difficult times. It may not take away the pain but helps us bear it.

Stacey said...

Kathysue, I'm so sorry to read this news. I can't even begin to imagine how you must feel at this time and yet, it's a road we all must face at some point. You and your Dougie will be in my thoughts and prayers. Never give up hope!

Stacey

Diane said...

So sorry to hear. Know that I will be praying for all. Diane

Shelly said...

Kathysue,

I am so sorry to hear about the very difficult battle you are facing. Please know that I am praying for you and you and Dougie.

Yellow Rose Arbor said...

Thank you for sharing this with us, such a difficult time for you both. I'm thankful to hear you have a lot of faith in the Lord. I don't know how anybody could get through times like this without Him. He has promised so much and He keeps His promises. I will pray for you both, I'm sure the Lord will bring you to mind often to remind me to pray. Stay in the Word and draw strength through Him there.

My daughter has a Christian blog and when someone joins (free) you'll receive a weekly free hand-penned watercolor bible verses to print out and place throughout your house to remind you of His promises. You can frame them, place them on a small easel, make greetings cards from them and many more ideas. Such a blessing to us to see them often. My favorite verse this year is "Be Still and Know I Am God." Psalm 46:10 I have this on a small easel in the dining room where I see it many times a day and it reminds me to trust Him.

Her blog is Writethemonmyheart.com if you would like to check it out. She also has a second blog Write7onmyheart.com that is a private group (anyone can join tho) and we are committed to write ONE of our favorite verses a day on a pad, notebook, journal, your choice. We encourage each other to write a verse down daily and post the seven verses, each Monday. We are a small group of about 20 people. We would love to have you join us writing a verse each day, a nice blessing and support!

Love and Prayers,
Katherine

La Vie Quotidienne said...

Oh Kathy Sue I am so very, very sorry. I have been thinking about you lately knowing that you haven't posted for a while and I wondered if everything was okay.

Although every situation is different I think I can understand what you are both going through as my life story with my wonderful husband was much the same. I will be praying for you, that you find strength, and moments of joy throughout the time you have left together.

God bless you both.

Adrienne

Unknown said...

Kathy, You are so brave sharing your story and reaching out. You will both be in my prayers. Knowing people are prayeing adn thinking of you and sending love will hopefully bring some comfort.

Hugs to you,

Karen

Leslie said...

When one in the body of Christ suffer, we all do! I will continue to lift up Doug in my prayers and you too!
These are moments when no words bring comfort except only through the strength of God to walk and guide you two through this journey.
Let these moments be filled with the outpouring of love you have for each other.
Treasure them and say all those tender things and the Lord give you two comfort in this season.
God bless...

Claire Barrere said...

I will pray for you with all my heart, I know what it means to have that one person in your life...

Wish I could wrap you up in my arms and comfort you. God bless.

Btw, your posts almost make this So. Ca girl want to move up your area.






Patricia said...

Oh, Kathysue: I will pray for your husband's liver to be controlled by our Great Physician. Also, that God will surround you with His peace, love, and comfort as you go through this very difficult ordeal.
Patricia
[I had communicated with you many years ago, via my email: lpd59@hotmail.com]

Linda said...

Kathysue

Thank You for sharing your need for prayers, I will Lift you and Doug and you're family up in prayers at this difficult time. I can't even imagine but God Knows and Has A Plan .

linda m

La Vie Quotidienne said...

Dear Kathy Sue,

I wrote you a rather long comment yesterday, I can't see it and I am concerned that you didn't get it.

I wanted you to know how concerned I was about your husband's illness and how much, having gone through a very similiar experience with my beloved husband, that I think I understand how difficult this is for you both.

My prayers and thoughts are with you.

Adrienne

Sherrie Spangler said...

You and your husband are in my thoughts. I've enjoyed your blog posts for a few years, and I was so sad to read this one. What a kick in the gut. May you find peace.

Mary Ann Pickett said...

Oh, my heart is breathing for you both, Kathy Sue. I am stopping to pray for Dougie and your family right now.
Mary Ann

karen said...

Saying a prayer right now.
Karen

Dumbwit Tellher said...

My deepest prayers will be for you & Doug. I’m truly crushed to read your news & I’m glad you decided to share what you two have been going through for many months. Cancer is ugly, heartbreaking & a thief of lives. It’s hard to find the right words to give you comfort; just know that you both are thought of, prayed for & cared about. My heart goes out to you as you navigate these days,& months ahead. ♥️

Deb Milne

Rosa Virgínia said...

I am really sorry. You and your husband are in my prayers.

Diane Haynie said...

Will definitely add you to my prayer list each evening. It was with great reluctance that I opened this blog post when I read the title. Odd that over the past couple of weeks I have noticed a lack of colorful posts on instagram and facebook from you and was wondering if all was well. Your enduring love as a couple reminds me so much of my own story and I almost lost my husband two years ago, July 2016. It was once of the most terrifying times in my life and what got me through it was not only my own personal faith but knowing that there were lots and lots of people out there also praying and hoping for a full recovery. IN our case it worked and I absolutely hope the same thing for you. In the meantime, hold each other and relive some favorite moments and rely on those closest to you who want to help you in any way they can but are not sure what to do to avoid insulting or interfering....let them know! Please keep us all (your devoted readers) posted as you much as you are able as we will all be thinking of you daily.

Unknown said...

Dear Kathy, I am so very,very sorry to learn that you and your dear husband are going through this most difficult time. Please know that I understand as I went through a similar experience with my precious husband several years ago. The only way to get through such times is to trust our heavenly Father and depend on His word which I know that you are doing. I will be praying for both Doug and you. We pray that our God of all comfort will comfort you both, and will give healing and peace. With much love, Louise

















Loi Thai, Tone on Tone said...

Dear Kathysue and Doug,
I am in shock. Speechless. Sending a big hug and prayers.
Please keep us post, my friend.
Lots of love,
L

Unknown said...

sending you prayers of peace and comfort as you walk this journey.
Kristen

June from Oregon said...

Kathysue and Doug,
Been praying since receiving your email. My prayer for you both is that you will know joy...even with the pain. And that when His Savior beckons, Doug will leave this life gently.

Carol S. said...

Prayers for you and your Dougie, May God give you both comfort and peace. Lost my dear husband 2 years ago at 53 of kidney cancer, which I also hate to share, after 30 wonderful years that I’m so grateful for. Life forever changed, but I’m ok as you will be too.

Teresa P said...

Kathysue,
I am so deeply sorry to hear of your dear husbands Doug's cancer. You both will be in my prayers and I pray that the Lord give you strength in the difficult months ahead. It seems cancer has unfortunately been in most every families lives one way or another.

"Pray for one another that you may be healed". James 5-16

Kim said...

Kathy, today is the first I have ever visited your blog [I was linked from a post you made 9 years ago if you can believe it!] and this brings tears to my eyes [my mascara is running as I type]. I feel compelled to post and let you know that while I am standing here at my desk, I am praying for your Dougie and for you. As for a bizarre footnote, my friend 'Dougie' is working in the next room - as is an Isaiah [also one of my favorite books of the Bible]. I am certain that He meant for me to see this and pray over you today. And I AM. Sending love, light and peace from Vermont. xo Kim

Shirley@Housepitality Designs said...

Kathysue...I am sooooo sorry that I just found this post in my "spam folder"....and I am so very sorry to hear about the love of your life....how so very devastating and I can assure you that he will be in my thoughts and prayers along with your family too.....My heart broke as I read this as think of my own marriage...one so much like yours...marrying your sweetheart so very young....I am happy that you decided to write this....again, thinking of you and praying, praying!

Preppy Empty Nester said...

Oh Kathy Sue... my heart breaks for you and your wonderful husband. I will keep you both in my prayers. I will also light a candle in church for you both. God bless! Xx

Ivy Lane said...

Praying for you both.....

xo,
Ivy

Unknown said...

I'm so sorry to hear this and I will be praying for you and your husband. You deep love comes across strongly and is something to be honored. I wish you courage and the gift of as much time as possible. In God's love, a longtime reader, Whitney

Terry K said...

My prayers are with you and your husband. I am so sorry for everything you are going through.